I sat silently staring up at the heavens angry and confused I felt dirty I felt cheap and I felt so abused
I screamed with all that my lungs would let me do “Why would you oh God I am so mad at you!!”
I could feel the frustration the anger the fire in my eyes As I watched the clouds thicken and darken the sky
I stood up straight with my fist clinched tight and arms down at my side I screamed “How could you do this I love you and She Loved You!!” I cried
“How a God of Love could let this happen! She was your gift to me!” “I love her with my eyes, mind, body and Soul” I screamed “This You could not see!”
“Oh God I am so Mad at you I expect, NO I demand an answer from you I demand to know why!” A lightning bolt shook the ground as deafening thunder rolled across the endless sky
“Yes it is me God your faithful and loving servant it is I who demand of you to tell me why!” The wind was blowing and the thunder was roaring I realized no answer was to come so I started to cry
As I sat on the ground crying I began to feel the drops of the warm rain gently caressing me I felt warmth and comfort I felt a presence around me I than understood it was God crying with me
I looked up at Heaven as the rain gently caressed my face “Oh God I need serenity” I know it was not his plan to take her away so soon but it is his plan to keep her for eternity
As the rain caressed me I felt peace comfort as I have never felt before and it gave me my serenity So as it rains from time to time I always think of the day that God cried with me
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