“I like a women who's got some balls, some strength. As long as I can beat her at arm wrestling, that's fine.”

~ James Hetfield ^^

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~~~~ in remembrance of Andy (R.I.P.) ~~~~
The Pilot in the Sky of Dreams (1966-2011)




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I find that showing your best to everyone and act someone very positive, who you are actually not, attracts most people cause they see only how you show yourself, only the surface, a mask you wear to hide yourself. Of course, it attracts them cause in some way they idealize that pattern and, however, each of them have their own made -up roles, on the outside they are acting as well and on the inside - cause of human naivety - they want to be just like that. We all want to be close to our idols, don’t we? The problem is that this world is not an ideal one; we all have problems in our private lives, studies, work and so on. They won’t disappear by being hidden from the outer world. Nor will they vanish if you’re trying to hide them even from yourself – and you can’t hide them forever. However, it can and usually does go on for a while. They get to like you easily or what’s worse: even love you. And nothing can hurt more than getting to know that you loved someone who has never lived. Maybe you don’t even recognize, but after a while, when you already feel safe enough in a relationship that secret bit, which you have dug deep into the darkest corner of your mind, will slowly start emerging subconsciously . Just like in fairy tales: sooner or later, the truth always turns out. When that mask falls down, you hurt those people you wanna hurt the least, those who happened to like something else than your covered face. Not talking about how hard it is for you to move on after you lose friends, lovers, family only cause you haven’t dared to reveal your real self.