[i]I just walked away from my old life and started a new one. I know not everyone can do this, or would even want to do something that dramatic but it sure worked for me. Yes it’s been hard but I would not swap what I have now for all in the world and will never, ever go back to what I had before. I’ve found that there really are more important things in life than love and marriage etc.. and that realisation has been the turning point in my life. I hope you all get to realise.
I have got my degree of which I am immensly proud but feel that my working life is a waste of time. i’m not doing what I want to do or being where I want to be. But I am still very happy with my work and I am proud of working. I always feel that I need to PROVE how bright I am. But most of all i’m incredibly LONELY. always in a state of crying inside. Is this it?
I guess at the age of 15 I didnt realize that the choices I made would be affecting my life 7 years later. Things that seemed excited and cool then are addictions I struggling with today. I want to change every aspect of my life. I want to wake up, I want to have the energy to give my friends all the attention they deserve, I want to be the best among friend and boy I can be… I want to take care of my appearance- dress better, Hmmm.. I just have to battle with the voice in my head that want to stay the same lazy person I have been. Change in hard, but living with regret of what couldve been is much worse. I dont want to waste another day!