i spent 5months in manila hoping that i can prove to myself and my parents that i can do it in my own. but i guess i wasn't serious enough to prove it. but i have learned lots of things during my stay. i met lots of new friends and really made me feel at home. but i was expecting a lot from myself that it me too proud. at work i was known by my colleagues to be very lax and doesn't care if whatever happens even if having no job. i made lots of lying and make believe stories in work, at my place, and i guess to most people i met here. which made me feel very ashamed of myself. i was not true to them and to myself. even if i am leaving now back to my hometown. i'm feeling that i lost, you know, a feeling were you think that there is something missing. so i guess this will serve a lesson for me in my future journeys. i have to be real and be thankful and responsible of the things i have and blessings that was given to me. thank you manila for this lesson and to the people i met and became friends with. i will never forget you guys. thanks for sharing your time and the things you gave me. i appreciate it so much..

And why did you open this topic?You don't have to tell stories about your personal life.If you have a question then just simply ask.I am sory if I didn't understend your post.

well ...i agree with kiko-king
u dont have to reveal your history....

but back to logic...as the post dated 30th october and had not yet being locked...
i guess there's a point in her subject..
"is hoping so much, wrong?"

my opinion...yes it is. It is wrong..
u have to stay positive, true...but hoping so much...
will only hurt u much...if u dont get what u hope for...

the simple thinking is...
stay positive, ok??